There was a time when my past dictated my present and future.
Perhaps you’ve been there—or are there right now.
My past was behind me, sure, but it lived through me, negatively impacting the present. I channeled my energy into finding answers as to why certain things had happened to me.
I wrestled with what I could have done differently, or what I should be doing. I looked to others to place blame, as if doing so would bring a brighter light to my present. I tossed and turned at night regretting past decisions that had put my family and I in the financial hole we found ourselves in.
As I kept reliving the darkness of my past, the present became even darker.
My relationship with my wife grew thick with tension; the authenticity of my relationships became stale. The areas in which I worked and played became toxic from the voice in my head leading the way.
I was a lit fuse, never knowing when I was about to explode from an unnecessary reaction.
The more I lived through what had caused such pain and stress, the more pain and stress it caused me in the present moment. It even traveled through me to those around me.
Then something happened.« Continue »